Grey clouds

Much of what is is lined in the silken gray of the reality I know. I can't contemplate the reality as I used to. Such things as gray formations of water are yet a stranger, and I cock my head to get a better perspective. Am I or is this all just a grand delusion put on to elicit my emotions? As a child, and a youth my brain contemplated such ideas. Life has joked and made it clear that nothing is or goes as planned.